Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Nine Inch Nails: Terrible Lie

I've been getting to know my inner mud demon, who looks and sounds a lot like Trent Reznor at Woodstock 1994. He's angry, bitter, resentful, and rejoices in the basest human qualities.

I think of this as shadow work. Better I get to know him through music and writing than turn him loose on the world.




"Terrible Lie"

hey God
why are you doing this to me?
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
why am i seething with this animosity?
hey God
i think you owe me a great big apology.

terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie

hey God
i really don't know what you mean.
seems like salvation come only in our dreams.
i feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
hey God
can this world really be as sad as it seems?

terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie

don't take it away from me.
i need someone to hold on to.
don't take it away from me.
i need someone to hold on to.

hey God
there's nothing left for me to hide.
i lost my ignorance, security and pride.
i'm all alone in a world you must despise.
hey God
i believed your promises, your promises and lies.

terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie

you made me throw it all away.
my morals left to decay.
how many you betray.
you've taken everything.

terrible lie.
my head is filled with disease.
my skin is begging you please.
i'm on my hands and knees.
i want so much to believe.

i need someone to hold on to.
i need someone to hold on to.
i need someone i need someone.
i need someone to hold on to.
i give you everything.
my sweet everything.
hey God
i really don't know who i am.
in this world of piss



2 comments:

Candy Minx said...

I have always been a NIN fan...and although this song may seem dark, it's motives come from a real place. Even if the narraotor is an athiest, or lost faith in the logic of the world, can't see how god works...it's important to notice that religious people, people of faith are not the owners of the big questions. Athiests also ask the big questions, why are we here, what is the meaning of life, why is there so much suffering? Too many people think that athiests or scientists are unfeeling or unquestioning, all people want to know about the intangible.

And in a reverse, I have hasd many conversations with monks, priests, nuns and others of faith and even dogma...who have had times of wondering and challenges about the logic of suffering and where is god and gods hand and voice.

Hey, great blog, and nice to "meet" you!!!

WH said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I was an atheist/agnostic for a long time. Then I became a Buddhist, which really is not too much different. So, I agree with what you say.

I tend to think that Reznor is gnostic or agnostic, but not so much atheist. He doesn't reject the idea of god, but he does question the way we define it or what it might be. He might even hate god for the world in which he lives, but hatred is an acceptance of god as real -- or at least that there is some "energy" that we call god.

Reznor would be a good Buddhist since he already sees life as dukkha (suffering).

Peace,
Bill