tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13617569.post2045302928253605747..comments2024-03-06T05:17:31.852-07:00Comments on Integral Options Cafe: Ecstasy Is the Key to Treating PTSDwilliam harrymanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06981478282688361274noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13617569.post-64849940995606721212008-08-18T19:11:00.000-07:002008-08-18T19:11:00.000-07:00billharryman (at) gmail (dot) combillharryman (at) gmail (dot) comwilliam harrymanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06981478282688361274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13617569.post-80124686054237411562008-08-18T19:08:00.000-07:002008-08-18T19:08:00.000-07:00Hi Bill,I can't find an email address for you on y...Hi Bill,<BR/><BR/>I can't find an email address for you on your blog, and I'd like to run a few thing by you, if you wouldn't mind.<BR/><BR/>Thanks!<BR/>AmandaUnknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03441446658153142180noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13617569.post-53415991332535008642008-06-29T18:40:00.000-07:002008-06-29T18:40:00.000-07:00Hi Amanda,Thank you so much for sharing your story...Hi Amanda,<BR/><BR/>Thank you so much for sharing your story here. And I am SO sorry to read what you have been through -- and glad you getting good help.<BR/><BR/>I'm glad to hear that you have had some good experience with MDMA -- just be careful -- if you use it anymore, do some research on using alpha lipoic acid to minimize damage to the serotonin circuits in the brain.<BR/><BR/>And thank you for the kind words about the blog. I'm grateful that you have found this site useful.<BR/><BR/>All best,<BR/>Billwilliam harrymanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06981478282688361274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13617569.post-28955698316340121052008-06-28T13:40:00.000-07:002008-06-28T13:40:00.000-07:00I a a woman with Complex PTSD from years of being ...I a a woman with <A HREF="http://www.ncptsd.va.gov/ncmain/ncdocs/fact_shts/fs_complex_ptsd.html" REL="nofollow">Complex PTSD</A> from years of being molested and raped by multiple male members of my family, mostly by my father. These experiences encompassed my entire childhood, from my earliest experiences as a small girl until I was nearly 18. <BR/><BR/>I have been in therapy with a trauma specialist for two years now (I am 24), and was on anti-depressants for the first year. The anti-depressants prevented me from being suicidal, but interfered with the process of trying to connect with my body in any meaningful way. Since quitting those a year ago, I have made huge strides both in and out of therapy, and have already become an entirely different person (while there is still a long way to go in recovery).<BR/><BR/>I have only taken ecstasy a few times, and I have to say that the effects were <I>amazing</I>. For the first time, I was able to <I>feel my feelings</I> and laugh, cry, grieve, without dissociating from my body...without having an equal anxiety reaction rise up and cause me to shut down. I felt like I could <I>breathe</I> for the first time (I have a tendency to hold my breath regularly).<BR/><BR/>For what it's worth, also, smoking cannabis was my first experience with feeling safe in my skin, although that seems to just numb the fear response, it doesn't facilitate emotional expression the way the ecstasy does. <BR/><BR/>Studies on the body's endo-cannibinoid system are fascinating...seems to deal with the extinction of fear-based memories.<BR/><BR/>I am relieved that MDMA is under study at the moment, and am looking forward to having the opportunity to obtain it for clinical use without having to resort to buying it on the street (which I won't do).<BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/>I have found your blog to be very informative and helpful...thank you for sharing all of your personal experiences and information here. I particularly have found your work with subpersonalities to be very helpful, as recovery from C-PTSD/dissociative disorders involves parts work and it's hard to find anyone talking about their actual experiences.Unknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03441446658153142180noreply@blogger.com