You all knew I couldn't stay away from blogging for too long. I'm not ready to return to full-time blogging, yet, but I have grown bored with being depressed, wallowing in despair, and feeling hopeless. That isn't who I am as a person.
There is nothing I can do to change the situation right now. I have given everything I have to this relationship -- love, patience, compassion, and openness. There is nothing I would have done differently if I had it to do over again -- and I regret nothing.
Experience tells me that this equanimity will come and go, so I'm going to take the time I need to process all the feelings.
But there is too much I want to do in this short life to live beneath a cloud of loss any longer.